“What’s going to happen to me?”, asked the 84 year-old woman upon hearing sad news. Her oldest child, who had been a pillar of strength since her stroke five years ago, was moving away. “Who’s going to take care of me?”, she worried. Marian was living in a nursing home ever since she survived a debilitating stroke to her entire left side during the holiday season of 2009. Because she was living alone at the time and had just hung up the phone from a conversation with her grandson, no one became alarmed when they hadn’t heard from her for awhile. They were accustomed to her self-sufficiency between trips to the market, feeding the birds, and exercising walks. Oh sure, everyone tried to convince her she needed an answering machine, but she refused. When the stroke hit her, she crumbled to the floor in fear and laid there for hours before being discovered. As darkness turned to light, and returned again to dusk, all Marian could do was pray.
You’re Never Alone
The words of Mark 12:30 were ringing in her thoughts. “Thou shall love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, with all thy soul, with all thy mind, and with all thy strength.” Later on the emergency room doctors discovered her low body temperature, in essence, prevented brain damage from setting in. Although Marian’s memory was sharp, her limbs would never respond to mental stimulation again. The only recourse was life in a wheelchair. The challenge of faith and acceptance became Marian’s new life focus. The haunting words of survival echoed daily in her head. “Thou shall love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, with all thy soul, with all thy mind, and with all thy strength.” But where were those five children she raised in the prime of her life? And the ten grandchildren? She tried to understand their lack of visits. Career obligations. Job transfers. College expectations. Lack of time and extreme distance between them. Adult responsibilities. Even the awkward feeling of discomfort associated with stopping by the nursing home. But she hadn’t expected this sorry plight. It wasn’t her choice either. When she hung up the phone fighting back tears, across the room she heard a soft gentle voice. The CNA was singing softly to herself as she took a step closer to offer Marian a tissue. “Never alone, never alone…..May the angels protect you, trouble neglect you and heaven accept you when it’s time to go home.” (Never Alone~Lady Antebellum)